"The Reason"

"The Reason" by Hoobastank is a song full of bitter sweet memories for me....tapi ni bukan nak cerita pasal lagu tu tapi pasal the word itself..."the reason"...remember masa entry yang lepas i wrote about "kehilangan"?..how it made me so so sad...

31-10-2008 on an average was not a good day to me...i know takde istilah good day or bad day tapi if u r in my shoes u would think so too...memula hilang HP than the Court Covened Meeting under Section 176 of the Companies Act yang i attend tu became out of hand wherein the purchasers that attended became very hostile...they insist on speaking Mandarin only...Mandarin? sepatah haram pun makcik tak faham...abossa pun tak faham...our liquidator hanya faham tapi tak boleh speak fluently...macam itik and ayam story.....macam attending mesyuarat MCA and buat i rasa macam di Hong Kong all over again.....tapi alhamdullillah semuanya ok...the vote for the scheme went through and hopefully the Court would sanction it.....

Lepas tu masa di airport i tak boleh nak check in...had to go to the ticketing counter to check.....masa beratur tu the guy yang kat depan i tu did not get the 6.40 flight and had to buy the 1-11-2008 punya flight...apa lagi panik lah i and abossa..tapi alhamdullilah after approximately 20 minutes of checking dapatlah juga....itupun masa untuk boarding dah nak tinggal nyawa nyawa ikan....selamatlah makcik balik......

On the way back called my sister...tahu yang dia mesti risaukan call tak dapat dapat...finally dapat selepas banyak kali dapat tapi masuk voice mail....dengar suara dia i jadi terus panik and risau.....decided there and there that kena balik Bangi...lagipun with all that has happened sepanjang hari ni tak sanggup nak balik rumah Bukit Jalil....and duduk sorang.gile jadi nye nanti

Sampai je Bangi I found out that my dearest sister was transferred...she has been transferred out....she is now the new Sessions Court Judge in ----------------. Dia sedih because she has to leave the "Palace" ....tapi i am certain that things happened for a reason and i am certain that the reason is a good reason........

Malamnye i could not sleep....events that happened the whole day kept repeating itself.....selalunya if things like this happens 2 orang yang selalu jadi mangsa untuk mendengar isi hati and isi perut i....Ijan and Pumpkin.....tapi macam mana nak call...H/P takde...??sob sob sob...me miss u all...miss all of u so so much.....jadi i took out a book that i have left with my sister to read.....tak tahulah if she finished reading it......"The Last Lecture" by Randy Pausch.....

The book was my all time favourite....its about life....its about a dying father's wish for his children..how he tried to put the principles he holds dear to his heart..... about life...in a bottle that would wash up on a beach for his children......telling them of stories of his life to teach them how to lead theirs....to remind them that he loves them...about him telling his wife to be strong and to move on.....and also to thank her for her undying love and support....its a book about living....

There is this quote yang i suka "the brick walls are there to stop the people who don't want it badly enough.They are there to stop "the other people"..it is also there for a reason....they give us chance to show how badly we want something".....i read it over and over again and it gives me this warm glowing feeling....STOP FEELING SORRY FOR URSELF AND MOVE ON......

So if you have the chance...please read it...it will move u as it moved me...stilll does even after reading it for a "i don't know how may times sudah"......will post the picture nanti...

Bila selesai reading the book i rasa amat lega and sleepy..."tiada sehelaipun daun yang jatuh tanpa pengetahuan ALLAH"...that means ALLAH maha mengetahui and that semua yang terjadi ada hikmah tersendiri...cumanya kita tak nampak the reason....tapi percayalah whatever the reason... is it is for the best...

"Terimalah apa yang Aku kurniakan padamu dan jadikanlah dirimu dari orang-orang yang bersyukur"......Surah Al Araf:144