Tuesday, November 4, 2008

one step at a time


Hurry up and wait

So close, but so far away

Everything that you've always dreamed of

Close enough for you to taste But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world but no one knows your name yet

Your wonderin' when and where and how you're gonna make it

You know you can if you get the chance In your face theres a door keeps slamming

Now you're feeling more and more frustrated And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

We live and we learn to take one step at a time

There's no need to rush It's like learning to fly Or falling in love

It's gonna happen and it's supposed to happen that we find the reasons why one step at a time You believe and you doubt You're confused, you got it all figured out

Everything that you wished for Could be, should be, would be yours If they only knew

But when there's no end in sight and when u need the strenght,remember its the Faith that keeps us going.




I luv this song....One Step At A Time by Jordan Sparks....when i feel down, lost and lonely i repeatedly listen to it and it kinda motivates me....that is what i did for the past few days...listen to it over and over again....loads of things on my mind and it bugs me...like some unresolved mystery.....like trying to put the last jigsaw piece and realise that it does not fit....can't sleep and alwiz blur.....both work and personal life are topsy turvy....i need answers...i need peace and contentment..I NEED A BEAR HUG.....i have faith in ALLAH and what he has in store for me......some BIG change is going to hit the office and i am not sure whether i can handle it...i worry about me..and i worry about abossa...i worry about the mischief those 2 at the office is going to create.....the effect of "it" to all of us......i m learning to be at peace with whatever that is going to happen and move on...but the worry still remains..........things happened for a reason and i know i harus bersangka baik dengan apa yang ditakdirkan ALLAH...


My personal life?.....messy......so messy that i rasa numb......i miss my comfort zone....i miss bear...i miss pumpkin.......i miss the feeling of being in control.....i feel that i am in a battle and i have bullets coming from all direction.........i have nowhere to run but to take it all in.....Have faith...I keep chanting that and i know there is light at the end of the tunnel....i pray that the "journey" would have an end soon and the heart would stop bleeeding silently......


During this troubled and confused time, i received an sms from someone.."Come what may, I will still take care of u.Don't worry k"...the words of comfort brings tears to my eyes.....he who has more to worry about is comforting me.....i know together with our maker's guidence we will b ok...we will face the greatest challenge of "our "life together...We will SURVIVE" and we both are not ALONE...



5 comments:

Adillah A Nordin said...

Have faith that Allah will always protect you when you seek His shelter.
Hang in there, my friend.
Take care.
<3

caramel said...

Thanks Dilla....u have been a wonderful friend to me

Asmadiana Alias said...

sabar kak, i know its hard and very hard for you...but, life is not always at the top aite? you will get through everything and everything will be okay...do have faith in Allah..=)

love you, and take care there

xoxo

Aishah Rahman said...

love the song
love my auntie
be strong and have faith
me know u're strong
can do anything
me know u have the perseverance to go through what ever it is =)
some more got ur doctor to take care of u maaa.. can wat? ;) hehe

caramel said...

Pumpkin....thanks...me luv u too..me know that we are made of tough stuff...sure can wan.......