MAK N ABAH

Sekarang......

Dahulu.....

Looking at my parent's wedding picture buat i teringat about a book i read about a month ago..titled "aku terima nikahnya"...it tells of cara cinta orang dulu dulu as compared to now..bercinta selepas kahwin yang membawa bahagia ke anak cucu.....when asked whether they went dating before marriage...my mom kata "mana ada"..they learn about each other after marriage....dislikes...likes....attitude....bertolak ansur and adapt....marriage is for life and istillah cerai takde dalam kamus.....

....page 145 of "my last lecture states the best advice on relationship and i rasa sama dengan buku "aku terima nikahnye" tu....."when it comes to men who are romantically interested in you, its really simple...just ignore everything they say and only pay attention to what they do".....orang dulu dulu mana ada romantik romantik....lovey dovey and yet their marriage last sampai ke anak cucu.....i tak pernah dengar abah i cakap i luve u to my mom...lap u pun tak pernah he he he tapi by his conduct i know that he loves her.....gaduh hari hari tapi cannot be apart from each other....i pray that i too would find that person who loves me, cares for me and would guide me spiritually...Amin....Adk sayang mak and abah....

when we were young

Mirror mirror on the wall, who is the cutest of them all?

My sister and me.....almost 10 years difference in age......but we are closer now than ever... we have our differences tapi like they say..."air yang dicincang takkan putus"....we share about almost everything and i do enjoy our evening conversations when we speak like apek and nyonya......abossa selalu rasa that it is cute....people say that she looks serious...memang pun tapi once u get to know her....thats a different story.........i wish that i could be like her..so cool, calm and collected....ada juga masa masa yang dia kelam kabut...especially bila ada summary yang tak siap tapi she works really well bila stress and bila last minute......me juga... i am so proud of my sister....her accomplishments both at work and her family life.....i know that she will do very well walau dimana pun.....we adapt very well sister dearie and i am sure what "he" says in his speech is what he meant......"proof that you deserve to be rewarded and i will fight for you"...the palace have lost their best "dayang" and Ampang here she comes......

"The Reason"

"The Reason" by Hoobastank is a song full of bitter sweet memories for me....tapi ni bukan nak cerita pasal lagu tu tapi pasal the word itself..."the reason"...remember masa entry yang lepas i wrote about "kehilangan"?..how it made me so so sad...

31-10-2008 on an average was not a good day to me...i know takde istilah good day or bad day tapi if u r in my shoes u would think so too...memula hilang HP than the Court Covened Meeting under Section 176 of the Companies Act yang i attend tu became out of hand wherein the purchasers that attended became very hostile...they insist on speaking Mandarin only...Mandarin? sepatah haram pun makcik tak faham...abossa pun tak faham...our liquidator hanya faham tapi tak boleh speak fluently...macam itik and ayam story.....macam attending mesyuarat MCA and buat i rasa macam di Hong Kong all over again.....tapi alhamdullillah semuanya ok...the vote for the scheme went through and hopefully the Court would sanction it.....

Lepas tu masa di airport i tak boleh nak check in...had to go to the ticketing counter to check.....masa beratur tu the guy yang kat depan i tu did not get the 6.40 flight and had to buy the 1-11-2008 punya flight...apa lagi panik lah i and abossa..tapi alhamdullilah after approximately 20 minutes of checking dapatlah juga....itupun masa untuk boarding dah nak tinggal nyawa nyawa ikan....selamatlah makcik balik......

On the way back called my sister...tahu yang dia mesti risaukan call tak dapat dapat...finally dapat selepas banyak kali dapat tapi masuk voice mail....dengar suara dia i jadi terus panik and risau.....decided there and there that kena balik Bangi...lagipun with all that has happened sepanjang hari ni tak sanggup nak balik rumah Bukit Jalil....and duduk sorang.gile jadi nye nanti

Sampai je Bangi I found out that my dearest sister was transferred...she has been transferred out....she is now the new Sessions Court Judge in ----------------. Dia sedih because she has to leave the "Palace" ....tapi i am certain that things happened for a reason and i am certain that the reason is a good reason........

Malamnye i could not sleep....events that happened the whole day kept repeating itself.....selalunya if things like this happens 2 orang yang selalu jadi mangsa untuk mendengar isi hati and isi perut i....Ijan and Pumpkin.....tapi macam mana nak call...H/P takde...??sob sob sob...me miss u all...miss all of u so so much.....jadi i took out a book that i have left with my sister to read.....tak tahulah if she finished reading it......"The Last Lecture" by Randy Pausch.....

The book was my all time favourite....its about life....its about a dying father's wish for his children..how he tried to put the principles he holds dear to his heart..... about life...in a bottle that would wash up on a beach for his children......telling them of stories of his life to teach them how to lead theirs....to remind them that he loves them...about him telling his wife to be strong and to move on.....and also to thank her for her undying love and support....its a book about living....

There is this quote yang i suka "the brick walls are there to stop the people who don't want it badly enough.They are there to stop "the other people"..it is also there for a reason....they give us chance to show how badly we want something".....i read it over and over again and it gives me this warm glowing feeling....STOP FEELING SORRY FOR URSELF AND MOVE ON......

So if you have the chance...please read it...it will move u as it moved me...stilll does even after reading it for a "i don't know how may times sudah"......will post the picture nanti...

Bila selesai reading the book i rasa amat lega and sleepy..."tiada sehelaipun daun yang jatuh tanpa pengetahuan ALLAH"...that means ALLAH maha mengetahui and that semua yang terjadi ada hikmah tersendiri...cumanya kita tak nampak the reason....tapi percayalah whatever the reason... is it is for the best...

"Terimalah apa yang Aku kurniakan padamu dan jadikanlah dirimu dari orang-orang yang bersyukur"......Surah Al Araf:144

Kehilangan

Something happened when i was in JB for a meeting.......lost my H/P...sesiapa yang kenal i pasti akan tahu yang H/P tu ibarat my life....kepada orang yang mencurinya my message is..."ALLAH itu maha mengetahui dan akan memakbulkan doa orang yang teraniaya...dramatiklah pulak kan?....tapi that H/P banyak menyimpan kenangan manis for me....important numbers....pictures of my luv ones......lagu lagu yang mengembalikan nostalgia....gambar MBG 9484..rasa macam patah sayap bila takda H/P macam hidup ini tak lengkap.............i cried and cried and cried tapi i know that nothing can bring it back....macam hilang laki lah pulak.....when "abbossa" came i started crying again.....ni tengah pujuk my sister untuk belikan yang baru......hopefully berjaya.....doakan lah ....early birthday present...Amin

me, my body and my mind

My Myra.......

This morning masa breakfast dengan boss..as usual lah kan....read an article in the Sum newspaper......caught my attention and i find it oh so true...

"nobody can tell u what u can do and what u can't do with ur body, when one person manages the most inner part of u which is ur sexuality and ur desire than u r nobody. When u give someone else the power to tell u what u can do wth ur body, u r ultimately giving that person the power to control ur mind"

The quote is more about sexuality and preference tapi i relate it to my body parts.....weight and etc....... nowadys orang selalu give rampant comments such as.....u dah gemuk lah....dah tembam lah...etc...yang menerima komen komen tu amatlah terasa kerdil.......rasa rendah diri....me especially........nak kurus bukannye senang ...kalau senang dah lama makcik kurus macam naomi campbell ....ni dah nak jadi macam tin sup cambell...i nak buat macam mana?

Cinta Sang Ratu

Last weekend I went back to Melaka...as usual.....went to Tesco with my mom....singgah Popular....just in case ada buku buku baru....ntah macam mana mood hari Sabtu tu mermbuat kan i singgah kat the malay book section......once upon a time ago i suka baca all this Alaf 21 Novel...especially by Norhayati Berahim, Aisyah Sofia and yang paling i suka ialah Ramlee Awang Murshid......this craze over Mlay romance books started bila we did some loan documentation for Karangkraf Group...they gave free books and the rest is history.....not bad juga......so masa kat Popular tu i ternampaklah this book by Ramlee Awang Murshid entitled Cinta Sang Ratu.....its actually a continuation from a previous book.....Bagaikan Puteri...macam trilogy lah...ada a 3rd book juga tapi i tak beli...nanti takda kerje lain asyik baca je buku tu marah pula my mom...n nanti sape yang nak habiskan paper Board yang macam melambai lambai suruh dihabiskan.....i finished it in one day...read it the whole night and it is so so so best......

its a love story...tapi tak lah macam yang berdrama sangat...he combines love and religion and its beautiful....

"Cinta Sang Ratu..laksana langit mencengkam purnama, ibarat mutiara di lautan biru...saujana mata memandang, seluas langit terbentang...tatkala cinta berbisik, suaranya memuji Tuhan, pabila rindu terusik, rasulnya jadi pilihan, sampai masanya cinta jadi taruhan, Sang Ratu menjadi impian".....

"Sesungguhnya cinta adalah hakikat..pelengkap nyawa dalam jasad, fitrah manusia sejagat..."

berfalsafah lah pulak kan...tapi cuba baca the book and u would understand....that at the end of the day our love for ALLAH is above all....DIA selalu ada and maha penyayang....unconditionally.........i tak sabar nak baca yang ketiga...maybe nanti baca masa dalam flight ke JB.......Dilla ke Jakarta hari ni sob sob sob....nak ikut...

Breakfast in Bangi

baby enjoying her tosei and horlicks ice

Kak Ogee and Arief- anak and mama dah sama tinggi

Afrina and Baby

The three musketeers...Afrina, Baby and Dini....

Last Saturday before balik Melaka had breakfast with my sis and the kids in Bangi...baby and arif balik dari boarding school...nak "Raya" lah katakan [Deepavali]......makan kat kedai mamak yang biasa...nama tak ingat..tapi nescafe tarik and capati dia best in the world.....ayam goreng dia pun best..everybody wanted to take pictures so that "kakak aishah" dapat tengok muka muka comel diaorang....they want "kakak aishah" to know that they misses her so much........bila nampak makanan yang banyak we asyik teringat entah apa lah yang budak kecik yang sorang tu tengah makan.........sedih lah jadinya...tapi we are know by the time the little one comes back dia mesti dah terror masak.....me miss her cuppies.......lulian misses her cuppies too...most of all i know that he misses her.....

23-10-2008

Happy Birthday to my dearest Boss....the best boss in the world...and also my dearest friend...he has this soft spot in my heart........ it really pisses me off when i see people doing "injustice "to him....if people got to know him and knows his style they would see the kind and considerate person he is....tak suka sangat my gambar masa ambil dengan boss...tembam sesangat.....malulah nak letak tapi itu aje gambar yang ada dengan boss...letak jelah and tawakkal and berdoa biar jgn ada org yang nak kutuk...

Penat

Penatnye these past few days...emotionally, spiritually and physically....so much things happened and left me grasping for air...Board paper berlambak tak siap ....but I bersyukur teramat to have him as a Boss...the best Boss in the world...he knows that i am not my true self and have been very supportive....what more could i ask...semalam dah siap 3 and insya allah 3 lagi in the making...correspondence yang berlambak tak check tu pun akhirnya dapat juga masukkan dalam log book and tinggal nak reply je....

semalam had a meeting with my 2nd favourite director Tuan Syed Zaid...pasal Prospell lagilah...hopefully with his support we can persuade the rest of the directors and close the deal.......that was from 3 to 4....than it was off to Messrs Hisham Sobri & Kadir...meeting dengan Zainur Zakaria...pasal another case...we appointed him as a co counsel....fees dia mak datuk punya lah mahal....terjatuh i dari kerusi bila tengok.....

today kena peruse the ARC & Board minutes....then to start with the papers again.....

P/S the doggie is actually a present from someone almost 3 years ago...to cheer me up when i tercedera jatuh a monsoon drain kat rumah lama......sweet kan? i mean the doggie and not the fall.....i still cannot comprehend macam mana boleh jatuh...stress agaknye....

My Bear

Let me tell of a story happened in a far far far away kingdom named Myraland.....there lived a couple so very much in luv named bear and B....their seven years together were so filled with happiness and laughter and like all fairytale they pray and wish that theirs would end happily ever after. There were rainy days but they brave them together... .But Allah has something else in storel for them and one day "that day "that they dread came.....as hard as they tried to brave the storm together, they failed....B decided that she needed to change.. its not because she does not love bear any longer....she does ...her love for him remains unchanged....still growing with every beat of her heart...bear was devastated because its such a drastic decision and he does not understand... but because of his deep love for her... just walked away......wounded and hurt....B knows that she is to be blamed but what choice does she have.....she knows that it would take a long time for the wound to heal....she prays that bear could one day find it in his heart to forgive her and that they could be the closest of friend.....she knows that at this moment he his hurting and it hurts her so so so much to know that she is the cause of his grief...she would 4ever live with the guilt of hurting the one she loves and hope that he will one day be smiling again....

Makan makan Raya

potong memotong sentuhan tangan Jasri and Kak Ani and the other is hasil kreativiti Kak Norina........tukang buatnye orang lain.....teka which is whic?........yang pastinye...cheese cake ni memang sedap....nak order boleh...anak Encik Mat Arif yang buat........lazat sekali....rendah kalori..........how we wish kan?


Rendang Adabi Kak Normi......sedap...boleh buat selalu ni Kak Normi.....tengah bayangkan Kak Normi sedang potong serai...siang lengkuas....potong bawang....buat kerisik....perah santan....banyak kerje tu.........



Kari ayam "datang lambat" kak Norina......memang best........kak Norina has the most cutest laugh ever.....bila dengar macam nak ikit sekali...contagious....

Sambal ikan bilis ku......ntah apa lah rasanye...woke up about 4 to cook this....harap harap sedap...habis juga so should be ok lah kot......boss and Kak Maz says that it is ok..Kak Ani cakap kalau ada petai akan bertambah sedap.........Kak Ani....bila nak buat kek petai?

Rendang, nasi impit (kak ani yang rebus....technically bibik dia lah yang rebus), kuah kacang Kak Maz...Kak Maz juga buat nasi tomato... tapi nasi dah habis b4 i sempat nak ambil gambar...one things for sure...nasi tomato memang best....bau nya semerbak.....Kak Maz...kita nak lagi.....boleh?
ayam golek dari jejaka credit admin- jasri, omar and Ajak. taste heavenly....

laksa kak rosaini and ina......sambal belacan dia ni so so nice....

Cik Yati, Kak Maz, Kak Norina and Kak Normi...salivating looking at the food......

Our Makan makan time again......"port luck style"....only for 11th floor staff sahaja tapi amat meriah..."Kurus" lah i macam ni...menu menu adalah seperti gambar-gambar diatas...me still learning nak susun semua gambar........huru hara dibuatnye.....hopefully in time akak jadi terror macam Cik Puan Danau Kaseh, Linda and Ms Hart......people in MBSB bila nak buat pot luck lagi...Lapar lah........

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday to 2 very special person in my life- Dini & Tina...Dini is my sweet niece...Afrina's little sister....she is is so sweet....quiet and demure...alwiz looking at you with those adoring eyes....Dini is the one in pink...she was so excited last nite and this morning she was the first to wake up....Happy Birthday sayang...AnT luvs you and nanti kita celebrate k.....

Tina...the iron lady..di apit ole 2 orang jejaka...the taller one is Kamaruddin ( Audit) and Mr Tang, our Financial Controller......Tina is our Company Secretary....alwiz bubly and absolutely luvs Durian...Durian Chendol...Durian "Donut"...she likes to play mahjong too....Dear Tina..thank you for being such a nice friend to me in MBSB.....when is our Red Box escapade dear...i tak sabar dah ni.....we can ask our American Idol to join too if you want....OK?

Jodoh

something happened yesterday just menambahkan ketakutan i terhadap institusi perkahwinan...u thought u kenal inside out the one u married but in truth u hardly know him.....comitment without marriage vs marriage....debatable i know but men being men bila dah kahwin sometimes would change...some lucky ones have a marriage made in heaven tapi some....sigh.......

"JODOH"
Jodoh tiada kaitan dengan keturunan. Hanya belum sampai masanya. Ia bagai menanti jambatan untuk ke seberang. Kalau panjang jambatannya jauhlah perjalanan kita. Ada org jodohnya cepat sebab jambatannya singkat. Usia 25 tahun rasanya belumlah terlalu lewat. Dan usia 35 tahun belum apa2 kalau sepanjang usia itu telah digunakan untuk membina kecemerlangan. nyatakan perasaan dan keinginan itu dalam doa2 lewat sembahyang. Allah mendengar.

Wanita baik untuk lelaki yang baik, sebaliknya wanita jahat untuk lelaki yang jahat. Biar lambat jodoh asalkan mendapat Mr Right dan biar seorang diri drpd menjadi mangsa lelaki yang tidak beriman kemudian nanti.

Raya Gathering

Songkok Ajak yang teramatlah glamour....


Ajak in his full Raya attire....macam mana lah tak menang kan....bila nak
belanja ni Ajak?

Kak Ani sedang menjamu selera di belakang gerai.....yummie nampaknye..

3 dara pingitan....yang tengah tu my favourite sis..Kak Maznah....and yang

berkebaya hitam tu ialah Puan Fatanah....pemenag tempat pertama ...best

dress....seksi sesangat...malu anak anak dara yang ada petang tu.....me especially

Our menu for the gathering...mee kari and mee sup....sedap...

Raya Gathering...hari yang ditunggu oleh semua warga MBSB..time for everybody to gather gather and makan makan..the ultimate tambah lemak sessions....our Ajak a.k.a Datuk Roslan lah yang paling beria sekali...i hate to admit this but he deserves it...songkok and butang baju tak tahan tu lah antara faktor yang buat the judge, Puan Aniza terpaksa pilih dia...jangan marah Ajak....gurau je..U do look good..

The gathering was organized by the Kelab Sukan and each department have their own stall. Our department's menu was mee kari and mee sup. Food from other department varies from roti jala, satay, ice cream, jemput jemput, kway teow...and our audit department buat rojak buah..yummie semuanya

Everybody came with their best raya attire and in the spirit of raya, some of the non malay staff also took the initiative to flaunt their best baju kurung and baju melayu...including my dearest Boss..baju melayu telok belanga colour kuning and sampin bunga ala P.Ramlee nak pergi nikah dalam cerita madu tiga tu....comel lah sesangat.

The decoration of the venue (our office's penthouse)was somewhat "pelik" macam "jamuan hari raya di kelab dangdut...ada "disco ball" and api lap lip...terasa macam nak gelek 360 degrees ala ala Inul.....no matter how pelik the deco was everybody enjoyed themselves..

will download the pictures soon k coz kerje berlambak untuk disiapkan....

Pumpkin

today my Pumpkin is leaving for UK to pursue her Masters....she is supposed to go on the third day of Raya but due to a slight "cliche" it has to be delayed..Finally she is going...As an anutie i've watched her grow from a cute little baby to this beautiful young lady she is now.....both inside out.....not only was she my niece but also my confidante....the selfish part of me wants to keep her here with me alwiz for i would be totally lost without her..who is going to hear me moan and groan about most everything?...sigh....BUT sensibility sets in and all i can do is put a brave front and let her go.....setahun aje....tak lama...sigh...365 days...am really going to miss her.....will miss our outings...our discussions on fruits.....lulian, stlawbelly....starfluit...(ada lagi buah-buahan yang anutie lupa ke pumpkin?).....and also "yesterday"....hopefully when she comes back .."yesterday" would be "today"...Pumpkin dearest if you are reading this please know that auntie luvs u very much..that my prayers would be with you alwiz, anutie believes in you .......and that i am going to miss you to bits.....

afrina n me

Afrina.....my sister's daughter.....source of my joy....her antics enough to bring a big smile to my face.........however betapa sayangnya dia ke i if made to choose between hannah montana and me.....i got a funny feeling that she wouldnt choose me....sigh...kids.....

my first entry!

Been wanting to start my own blog for a long time but never found the time and courage to do so.....but this time put my butt down and started.......so here goes.....