Charles & Keith

Dilla...this entry is for you......during my trip to Singapore, we (my sister, Puan Hamidah, Abg Dahlan and his lovely wife kak Lina) went to Marina Bay for dinner. Hajat dihati nak makan at this Korean Restaurant called Seoul Garden. we had to pass through the shopping complex before sampai kat restaurant tu..........wrong decision.......the kedai yang "terpaksa" dilalui seolah olah melambai lambai suruh masuk and tengok and akhirnya beli......me not so into buying baju baju tapi handbeg and kasut.....my weaknesess........especially if the price is reasonable...........dari jauh my sis n me dah nampak kedai Charles & Keith ni.........we were like floating n floating n tiba tiba je dah masuk dalam kedai tu.........the begs there is so cantik........yang mula caught my attention is the black beg dibawah ni...........bila i tengok price nye i terus je beli SGD69.90......kalau convert pun tak le mahal sangat.........

Cantik tak Dilla?...sementara tunggu the amoy ambil yang baru, i pun jalan jalan lagi didalam......then it happened......i saw another beg....a brown coloured beg........beg besar yang memang my favourite.......i tak pernah ada colour tu jadi i looked at my sister and ask...."should i or should i not?......her reply was...."beli je lah.....asal aku tak payah bayar ko belilah"......and so my dearest friends....i pun beli je lah....this one cost me SGD59.90...lepas tu dapat rebate GST about SGD5.00......kira murah lah.......lepas bayar i cepat cepat keluar....nanti beli lah pulak yang lain siapelah yang susah? makcik juga........(P/S I actually bought a pair of shoes and sunglasess when i went there on my own the next day....he he he)

The brown beg can fit all the rubbish that i usually carry with me to the office...especially now...ubat diet, camera, beg mekap.......papers....pen.......beg ni dah jadi macam beg magic.....hulur je tangan and mesti ada punya.......tetapi at times akan jadi macam the black hole....seluk bagai nak rak tapi tak jumpa jumpa....especially bila nak cari kunci kereta and wallet.....& H/P........

P/S: .they opened a Fendi boutique balik di KLCC......cantik cantik...hargenye juga cantik lah tersangat....................Birthday i dah nak dekat dah ni..........hint hint hint........bear?

Singa-pula

When my sister told me that she would be going for an attachment programme at the Supreme Court in Singapore i jumped out of joy...yippie... free holiday...accomodation free.....cepat cepat i apply cuti from abossa....actually beg for leave...cuti pun kena merayu rayu....kesian nye....than bought my flight ticket......Singapore here i come.......

Like the signage.....Going Om....really feel homesick...jalan sorang sorang mula mula memang seronok tetapi lama lama u rasa teramat lonely.....the other bad thing about travelling alone is that u never get to have a lot of your picture taken....gambar scenery adalah......so people...enjoy the pictures k

Lonely macam manapun makan tepat mahu juga....nescafee tarik ni memang best....the murtabak ayam is superb....lazat....nama restorannye ialah Zam Zam

Chinatown before and after the rain........

Singapore Supreme Court.....my sis had her attachment programme here....every evening she would narrate to me what she learned...i am so impressed.....their courts macam langit dan bumi dengan Malaysian Courts..so efficient and systematic.....no such things as backlog of cases...they even have night court...their website is so canggih comparatively to ours yang tak pernah berupdate....my sis absorbed as much as she could and now a women on a mission..........to make her little Ampang Session Court into a model court here in Malaysia....i pray that her dream would come true.....insya allah......

Singapore...very famous for its signage.....do this and don't do that....please do that and don't u dare do this.........if in Malaysia ntah apa lah yang akan kita letak kat signage tu......tulis multi language road signs je dah jadi political issue...sigh...

Singapore skycrappers thanks to land reclaimation, Singapore that use to be a small dot on the map has now become a much bigger island than it was 50 years ago....i was very impressed with the development that Singapore has achieved....but that incident in the cable car spoils everything.....will update on the cable car incident...should have just snapped his photo and put at every entry point to Malaysia with the following remark...."RACIST-PLEASE SHOOT ...

P/S....The Esplanande..designed to look like a microphone tapi reminds me of a Durian.......Lulian oh Lulian....oh Pumpkin.........10 days....sigh.....sigh.......

...will update with more pictures k..........

P.S I LOVE YOU

Last weekend while waiting for my flight to Singapore, I bought myself a book entitled P.S I Love You by Cecelia Ahern..wish i had bought it sooner..[she has since written 4 books after this particular one....he he he...what to do people...i am a late bloomer..it had kept me company at the LCCT Terminal while waiting for the flight, 55 minutes of the journey, 2 hours of waiting until my sister arrives in Terminal 2, Singapore....during my tours alone in Singapore, the night there when i could not sleep, my journey in the MRT, in the cab back to Changi Airport and i finally finished it while waiting for my flight home..approximately 9.00pm Tuesday, 18th November, 2008...its a beautiful book and i just have to post it first.....my only regret is that i did not read it sooner....

Its a book about LOVE....about a dying husband's attempt to be apart of his wife's life a little longer after his death by leaving her 10 letters containing list of things for her to do and each of them ends with P.S I Love You..about a husband's wish for the wife to move on and continue living after he dies....about a women grieving the lost of the love of her life and her fears that she can't go on alone..about a women given advice by the man she loved thru the letters, who had taken it and tried her hardest to help heal herself..about the power of friendship and family ties and love........about living life and about loving

It was so well written....tears fell as i read lines after lines....

P/S there's a movie starring Hillary Swank and Gerrard Butler based on this book......

P/S........i miss my "tatach n go"...miss my "inchi minchi spider"...i miss Bear....i miss laughing with u....

crowded or clowded

Have u ever felt that there is so many things dancing in that little mind of urs that u just want to spill it out...that is what i am feeling right now......my mind is so crowded that i am so clowded....i am not making sense am i?my brain is working overtime and it is so tiring.......

Bear - we met last weekend and talked about things. How i miss my bear..we decided that we would go through the changes together i.e not just cut ties but remain together as close friends...my prayers have been answered...really am very happy...we have to adapt with the changes and the most important of all is about the new circles of friends that we both have made these past few weeks...whatever and whoever makes bear smile would make me happy as well...with Allah's blessings and guidance everything would be ok...janagn marah marah bear....sabar lah....

Pumpkin - I miss her...i know that she misses us as well......hari tu dia demam and that worries me so so much.....take care little one..

Board-finished all 10 papers for Board finally tapi am getting so so lazy...abossa pun perasan..esok harinya for Board...all together ada 50 papers to be tabled....berasaplah otak directors....i doakan agar abossa tak kena "tembak"....

Nana -SPM is esok and i am worried about her...dia panicking seperti biasa tapi i know that she would do just fine....tak lulus kita kahwin kan je ..he he he....Mok ada sedia menanti.......i know Nana's reply..."akak tunggu anti".....my advice to her is "if sayang tunggu anti alamat berjanggutlah jadinye"....a long wait darling......try your best k Nana...anti doakan all the best....

Ayin - pun ambil exam macam nana...tapi have been a bad anti for her...i have lost touch...would try to be a better anti......pumpkin...please sms her number...anti takdelah....

Sis- worried bout her transitional period....taknak orang buli dia...benci org buli my sister....her patience would pull he through...

Afrina-kenapa lah minah sorang ni taknak pergi sekolah...would pay a visit to the school and do a spot check....apa masalahnye...she is so smart and it kills me when she refuse to go to school........like she is afraid of it.......ntahlah....

Abg Is- my second brother....i am so angry with how he is dealing with his life...he is my brother and i luv him but he has to be more in control of his life....let go of the ego and admit that u need help....how to tell him that...i am not avoiding him because i hate him...how could one hate their own flesh and blood? i am avoiding him because i am angry and sad...sad at how things turn out for him...and how he refuse to move on.....

abossa-he has been a blessing to me...i must have done something good in my life...my guardian angel...alwiz have my best interest at heart...bila marah tu lain ceritalah...nangis air mata darah pun dia tak kan peduli...pasal kerje lah...tapi as a friend he is one in a million....worried about the effect of the changes to him .......pary that all will be ok.......

Me-sometimes the loneliness kills...i know that ALLAH sentiasa ada and that i should find my way back to him...tapi the loneliness sometimes buat i takut.....takut yang teramat sangat..ramai oarang tapi masih rasa lonely...would i be like this for the rest of my life.....if i die now ada tak orang yang akan mendoakan kesejahteraan i di sana...adakah ALLAH akan mengampuni dosa dosa i yang sebanyak butiran pasir di pantai?

Tapi i know that i patut rasa bersyukur....masih sihat, ada ramai friends that cares...macam Dilla...found new friens yang selalu buat i ketawa and happi...Linda and Nana...ada family yang sayang i....ada nieces and nephews..boss yang amat mengambil berat.Bear yang selalu menyayangi i.....Alhamdulillah

Heroes

3rd season of the series Heroes has started....1st Episode entitled "the Villain" started yesterday.........but this time around the show was a bit scarry for me..[walau bukan cerita hantu tapi i masih rasa takut-mengada ngada kan?]..maybe tengok sorang sorang kot...ada some part yang very gruesome...especially part yang Syler cut open Claire's head and examine her brain..Syler is the ultimate villain from the 1st season...ada ramai villain baru and i am just so excited to see what their abilities are....

semalam takut tapi i rasa now i know what to expect i should be ok.....My passion for the show is shared by 3 others- Dilla, Pumpkin and Mr. Tang.......tapi ni bila Pumpkin jauh tak tahulah pula if she is watching it now...Pumpkin?watching?...pagi pagi Dilla dah call and we talked about it...i have to watch the sunday repeats because i chickened out and went to sleep.....i tak tengok the 2nd episode...Dilla filled me in and felt slightly better...i tak miss that much.......surf the net to check on the spoilers and i know that this time around would be more exciting...walau Mr. Tang told me that ada some bad reviews on the 3rd season.....i think otherwise...bersangka baik....maybe the 2nd season tak berapa best tapi i have faith in the 3rd season....

Peter Petrelli is my favourable hero other than Hiro Nakamura....he is so so so good looking...betul tak Dilla?...very beautiful and alluring eyes.....can't wait for Sunday....and all the coming episodes.....Dilla thanks for the snipets of the 2nd episode....

one step at a time

Hurry up and wait

So close, but so far away

Everything that you've always dreamed of

Close enough for you to taste But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world but no one knows your name yet

Your wonderin' when and where and how you're gonna make it

You know you can if you get the chance In your face theres a door keeps slamming

Now you're feeling more and more frustrated And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting

We live and we learn to take one step at a time

There's no need to rush It's like learning to fly Or falling in love

It's gonna happen and it's supposed to happen that we find the reasons why one step at a time You believe and you doubt You're confused, you got it all figured out

Everything that you wished for Could be, should be, would be yours If they only knew

But when there's no end in sight and when u need the strenght,remember its the Faith that keeps us going.

I luv this song....One Step At A Time by Jordan Sparks....when i feel down, lost and lonely i repeatedly listen to it and it kinda motivates me....that is what i did for the past few days...listen to it over and over again....loads of things on my mind and it bugs me...like some unresolved mystery.....like trying to put the last jigsaw piece and realise that it does not fit....can't sleep and alwiz blur.....both work and personal life are topsy turvy....i need answers...i need peace and contentment..I NEED A BEAR HUG.....i have faith in ALLAH and what he has in store for me......some BIG change is going to hit the office and i am not sure whether i can handle it...i worry about me..and i worry about abossa...i worry about the mischief those 2 at the office is going to create.....the effect of "it" to all of us......i m learning to be at peace with whatever that is going to happen and move on...but the worry still remains..........things happened for a reason and i know i harus bersangka baik dengan apa yang ditakdirkan ALLAH...

My personal life?.....messy......so messy that i rasa numb......i miss my comfort zone....i miss bear...i miss pumpkin.......i miss the feeling of being in control.....i feel that i am in a battle and i have bullets coming from all direction.........i have nowhere to run but to take it all in.....Have faith...I keep chanting that and i know there is light at the end of the tunnel....i pray that the "journey" would have an end soon and the heart would stop bleeeding silently......

During this troubled and confused time, i received an sms from someone.."Come what may, I will still take care of u.Don't worry k"...the words of comfort brings tears to my eyes.....he who has more to worry about is comforting me.....i know together with our maker's guidence we will b ok...we will face the greatest challenge of "our "life together...We will SURVIVE" and we both are not ALONE...